Macam tittle kt atas tu LOVE IS FRIENDSHIP .... boleh agree x dgn tittle tu .... emmm is hard to love somebody now .... but at least i really can face it and at least i brave to tell .... as long i pernah dipermainkan oleh org i harder to love someone but if i really2 love someone i really mean it .... it's okay i can accept it ...
now i kt pan pac hotel klia .... waiting for mama and ayah sampai,n a bit holiday of mind relax .... mum n dad im so glad and so excited to meet you ..... i need you so much <3 ma,kakak ta kuat ma .... tp ma akk cube kuat ma .... mama penah ckp,XPE KAKAK,ORG YG BAIK UNTUK ORG YG BAIK ... INSYALLAH .... ok ma,kakak cube kuat ,,,, i love you so much .... oh tears plzz go away :'(
Hey there blogs .... wargh mmg dah berkurun aku tak update blog neh ... im quite busy since this is final year that im going to face it on this year...hurmmm btw... life aku dah lain sgt2 ... ermm aku dah mula rase i am big girl already ... then i have to think twice before making any decision to my life.i just want to say that i want to leave a world that should i leave from a long ago ... hurmmm i still love them so much ... how could i leave them ... n i should leave them because 1 day i will leave them to ... ermm i just want to stay with the ppl who close with me only .... and i still want that ppl and love that ppl so much ... eventough he is quite strange... i will still wait for that ppl n love that ppl so much .... emm till then im still waiting .. :p
okay2 ... gtg i have class on 12 pm ... will meet yah on this nite okey ....
Urm btw,ari ni ari jumaat n supposely aku dah balik umah untuk berbuka puase dgn family aku,but college aku ni mcm bangang g buat praktikal ari sabtu so kami xder peluang nak balik umah untuk berpuase bersama family ... bapak giler teruk college aku....urm seperti biasa aku g kolej mockward level 3 untuk jalani praktikal lah .... then pg2 tadi aku dah mesej epul .... erm kiteorg gadoh n gadoh n salahkan antara satu sama lain...urm semua salah kan aku .... aku benci giler for all those stupid thingsx .... capital F FOR F FOR F FOR F .... FCUK ....
DEAR EPUL,
i tak taw ape salah i taw x....
u ingt x dalm tarikh 1,2,3,4,5 ni times kiter kenal,
time u knl ayen nanat and all my friends ...
but u kan layan i mcm aper kan...
mcm i ni bkn kawan u ...
yer maklumlah u kan dah ade ROZAI n kawan2 u yg lain...
maner u nak ingt i pon...
i mintak jumpe seminit pon susah .... urghhhh..
mmg i tak paham ngan u...
u buat i cam kertas ...
if dah gune u buang ,
yeah i hate this part of you ....
Now i feel so so Fcuk right now .... in need to go to holiday as well,untuk tenangkan fikiran aku ...
bleh plak aku nak menagis dalam mockward td time practical,
but aku tahan n tahan supaya air mata niey x lagi jatuh untuk sekalian kalinya..
n untuk sekalian kalinya AIR MATE NI JATUH UNTUK SEORG KAWAN YG AKU SGT SYG ....
last saturday ader klbb gathering.... urmmm ramai jugak la yang datang .... happening n little bit stress .... urmmm .... n now aku rase mmg sgt2 sedey 2 3 ari niey ...mmg aku tak taw knp .... that day aku ckp kat dier AKU BENCI DIER .... urmmmm aku mintak tlg mende kecik n mende tu x sampai 5 minit pon aku mintak tlg ..... aku mmg terdesak nak baiki lampu LADY BIRD aku .... urm, biler aku habis kelas aku kol dier aku cakap nak ajak dier temankan .... then taw2 dier ckp dier ader kat klinik teman bf dier g klinik ... so i feellll soooo FFFFFF la ... then terus aku cakap aku benci dier....then that day is day when kiteorg meet n berkawan ... but tu semua tinggal kenangan .... urmmmm
now tiap2 malam aku nangis2 n nagis ...urm i feel lonely n so sad .... dgn masalah yang bertimbun2 lg .... posting lagi ..... aku benci dgn semua ni....tapi aku boleh pk lagi...aku pk mama n ayah aku .... aku nak buat yg terbaik tok dorang .... n aku mmg benci biler ader org nak canag2 abg2 n akak aku ... aku benci sesangat okey .... sblm ko nak canang dorong meh aku tapak muke ko dulu .... ske2 ati jer ko nak buat citer yg bkn2 pasal dier.....
Hurm biarpon dier dah pergi ngan kekasih hati dier ... aku tetap ade kawan2 aku yg lain ... AYEN,FAIZ still by my side .... Hurm Ramai yg support aku dr blkng ... Aku ta kisah ... TQ to ABG ALAN,ABG REN,ABG ARES,ABG JAY,JEFF,EZAD,WAN,WANZU...no no i will not cry anymore ...
Hurm ....all night long aku crying crying and crying a lot ... i am speechless with my bestfriend ... hurmmm ... up to him lah ape yg dier nak wat ... dun care about me anymore ... :((((
Ermm mmg aku nak citer kat sini .... aku mmg sedih sgt sbb since aku balik dr praktikal sem lpas ... i dapat taw dier dah ader yg empunye .... aku x jeles but he's change a lot ... masalahnyer kalau die cple ngan pompuan xper ... niey dier cple ngan laki ... hurm mmg dier berubah giler when first met dier ... kalau die kuar ngan bf die,xdek plak aku nak kacau dorang dating apa kejadahnye ... tp kalau dier kuar ngan aku ... tgn die sibuk bergerak nak taip mesej .... mase drive pon nak mesej .... die nak aku mati kot ... main mesej smbil bawak kete ... aku x paham,knp die x boleh nak spent mase tok bff dier without his love ... bkn sataun pon aku keluar ngan dier ... but sehari jerk ... sehari jerkkk ... tu pon x boleh ker nak berenggang ngan dier pnyer bf .... sejujurnyer i bgtaw okey ... bkn i nak back up dier or what ... but this is my opinion....antara kawan2 i,u epul,faiz and ayen,dorang pon ade couple tp tyme kuar ngan mmber2,semua enjoy jer ... love to tolak tepi kejap ... bkn lame pon ... skjp jer ... but u know what u r different ... i really dissapointed with you....yeah ni blog i n i x taw nak luahkan kt sape2 lg ... so i just typing jer kat cni ...
u know what epul ...
i miss you when you wish good morning to me,
i miss you when you wish good night to me,
i miss you when i'm not texting you for the day,
u ask me wether i'm feeling well or not ,
i wish you were here,
i wish you changed for an old you,
I MISS YOU ,YOUR OLD YOU ...
And FAIZ,AYEN,BEN,NAT,ATIKAH ... thank you so much for being my bestfriend ever ...
when i feel sad you all be by my side ... love you all
Well skrg everything in my life is okey .. and stable thanks for accept my apology friends ... well miss you so much ... yes i miss my frenz so much AYEN,BEN,FAIZ,NAT,MEMER,EPUL,ATIKAH,I MISS you all so much ... I can't lost All of you guys .... you meant everything to me ... thanks for everything n thanks for support me when im having a problem even kadang pon mulut korang agak keceluparan n i accept that as joking ... u now what,WHEN we r fighting each other... i masih anggap korang semua kawan okey ..SBB without friends i am nothing thank you all ...SAYANG KORANG !!
yeah,hati aku sering disakiti ... xperlah,demi kawan aku sanggup .... sbb org yg aku syg hati aku sakit sbb kawan jugak la aku perlu korbankan segalanya,sbb syg kwn la aku biar die buat pilihan dier sendiri ... kini hidup aku dihantui oleh rase sunyi ... nothing and like black all over the world ... kehilangan kawan tu mmg dah lali dlm hidup aku ... dulu aku pernah khilangan org yg aku syg,kwn yg aku syg .... untuk arwah Khairul And Hafiz ... aku doakan semoga Kamu semua ditempatkan d tempat2 org yg beriman ......
weeee...acctually setelah 3 week aku merantaw di negeri org...aku finally pulang ke tanah air dgn satu perubahan.alhamdullilah .... and lil bit of saddness...aku telah khilngan sorang besties ... tp sokey dier pilih untuk jalani hidup dier mcm tu ... so whuts da matter aku nak sedeh lg .... then i choose to follow my ways .... okey2 ... sesampai aku dier KL ari tu ... aku terus balik umah aku kat Wangsa maju .... then i'll be going to subang jaya on saturday menghadiri kenduri kawen adik angkt natrah Fer .... acc aku sgt happy ... then i hang out with my besties ... epul n nat ... yeah ade suke ade duke marah .... but this is enough to me ... thanks my sygness .... i hope our friendship will last forever .... btw,aku dah lame x update blog niey sbb line mcm siput babi ... huhu...then now im at Kuantan ... br smpi smlm ... hari isnin lepas pergi anta grandpa,uncle,auntie and uncle at KLIA...sbb dorang nak wat ibadah umrah .... then semlm br blik kuantan ... then ill b going to kl semula on saturday .... penatnyer .... huhuhu ... okey thats all,penat nak berceloteh pnjng2 ...
HAPPY TEACHERS DAY kt teacher2 yg ade kat luar tu especially my mom .... thanks you for teaching me ... sehingga ieyka berjaya ke tahap niey ..... hehehehehe ..... anyway happy teacher day pada kazen sy kak erma,kak yong,along ana,abg saiful nazli n oso my auntie Rosnaini .... ramai btol yg sambut hari guru niey .... hehehehehhe ....
okey2 kat cni aku nak cerita lah .... ari ni ari pertama minggu ketiga aku posting kat cni ..... then aku shift ptg dgn tikah n betine haram tu .... lpas tu kan tetiber bini doktor dtg nk sound2 org ntah pape...saje nak cr pasal .... bini doktor ni kuat cenburu,sikit2 nak tpon laki dier. ...ntah paper....then aku nak ckp kat cni lah org tua,kiteorg kat cni nak cr ilmu bkn nak ngorat laki kaw la bodoh .... kalau setakat pakai purdah perangai mcm setan buat aper ..... eiiii ko ni kan...buat aku ilang sabar lah .... dulu aku masih terima lagi,skrg mmg aku dah ilang sabar n sampi abis posting niey aku xkan respect ko la betine ..... doktor x ckp paper pon nak deducted mark kiteorg .... ko plak yg lebey2 over .... pas tu aku nak bgtaw ..... markah kiteorg sbnrnyer ci n staff nurse jer yg boleh bg ..... bkn doktor or pengurus klinik ... ko jgn nak giler kuasa sgt lah .... kiteorg pon boleh buat report kat kolej la kalau ko layan student mcm tu ..... kiteorg ni pon manusia mcm ko....ade akal gak ..... mak ayah aku keje besar2 jugak .... tp xder bongkak mcm ko lah ..... ko tgk aku ngan kengkawn aku berpakaian nurse ko pk kiteorg ni kuli doktor lah ... pikirlah org tua ....hari kau akan tiba .... ko spatutnyer wat ibadah .... bkn nyer nak kutok org nak benci2 org .....
p/s : sesungguhnya ALLAH tu tau ape yg kiteorg buat ni btol ataw x?niat kiteorg .... jgn nak main tuduh jer okey .... bnyk2 buat ibadat ....
hey2 almost 2 weeks aku kat terengganu neh .... well 1 weeek to go nak blik kl .... yeay ..... btw skrg ni aku sgt2 rindu kat kawan2 aku kat sane .... cpt lah balik !!! well,kt cni fun....aku pergi merate jugak la ... aku pergi lata belata,pantai air tawar,kuala besut (jeti ke pulau perhentian),lata tembakah,n heading to kb smlm pergi wakaf che yeh ... merata aku beralan .... tp have fun sgt .... now excited nak menempuh minggu br...n nak balik kl secepat yg mgkin....x kira la balik jnjji aku nak menjeakkan kaki aku kt kl a.s.a.p !!hehehehe ...
yeah eventough kat jerteh nie xder aper menarik but aku sgt happening sgt .... ade aktiviti yg nak di buat ,kami pegi ke Lata Belatan .... BBQ...mmg seronok sgt .... yg paling excitednyer dayah lah ... takot2 air dierlah paling excited jumper air smpi sakit kaki ... huhuhu ... aku malas nak berceloteh panjang2 ... theres a few picture of us .... :)
ok well well i nak citer kat cni .... aku dah kat terengganu dah 4 days kat cni .... aku bertolak dr kuala lumpur to terengganu around 10 am pada pg sabtu tu .... aku sampi ke tempat yg dituju pada pukul 8 malam jugak la ... kami dtempatkan di tok dor ... kt c2 susah nak cr kedai okey .... line hp pon xder...aku pelik la knplah masterskill nak hantar kiteorg kt ceruk mcm tu .... for the information i stay kat jerteh sempadan daerah kelantan dah .... urghhhh ape yg aku boley ckp kat cni aku nak balik A.S.A.P ke KL !!!
Urgh .... BSE examination procedure ..... ari ni procedure aku mmg berterabur sgt sbb terlalu nervous .... n ari ni kalau jd nak g tgk SCRE4M .... NGAN epul n eeya ... heheheh ....
hey2 dah lame i x update blog yg serabut niey ..... heheheh ...
acctually .... the last week i having final examination for my sem 5 ...
so a quiet buzy jugaklah ... bkn kekwat but sgt busy ....
then after last paper on thursday i drive terus balik kuantan ...
wah happy giler biler balik hometown ....
just like heaven ....
spending time with my family ....
n ari ahad dah tiber mase untuk i pulang untuk study n having osce this week ...
sgt sad :(((( when nak balik tuh .... i xnak balik ...
tp terpaksa ... but my fmly dtg ari selasa niey sbb nak settle sal apartment kat wangsa maju sek.10 tu ...
then,kiteorg celebrated birthday natrah with suprisely bday cake yg dihandle oleh secret admirer dier ...ERIKO RYAN MORI .... hahahah,,,separuh nafas nanat .... heheheh .... thanx jugak kat dorang2 yang menjayakan kelentongan kami ... EPUL,ATIKAH,MIJA,FAIZ .... thanx aw korang ... and eventough i sgt penat i sgt happy ....n ari ni aku osce ... alhamdullilah aku pass ....thanx sgt2 kt korang gak sbb bg support kat i ....
lastly I SAYANG KORANG SEMUA .... N THNX TO SPECIAL GUEST ON THAT DAY ERIKO SBB DTG AT BIRTHDAY NANAT TUH ...
